The words we did not get to say.

All right, man, I guess after like thinking and Feeling and shit like I don’t know how to feel about this because I don’t know how to express myself that good but I guess it kind of hit me that I’ve been bitching more about shit heels and Fuck boys and all that bullshit instead of actually thinking about people I miss like really miss like people that were close to me and really helped my life together and I guess I don’t know what that says about me Sounds pretty shitty that I think more about people I hate Than people I’d miss and love and you know played a real rule in my life But I miss my fucking dad man. He’s been gone for so much fucking longer than I even realize Like it still feels like one to two years, but it’s been like fucking a I think about him all the time I know mom does I know great though. My brother does But uh, it never gets easier I still wish I could tell them that I love to wish I could tell them I wish you could see what he’s made me I mean I’m not a great person, but I feel like I’m a lot better than I used to be Not think he played a big role in that I guess when I slow down and could be an angry Let’s start thinking back even with our disagreements. I wish I could tell them that It was a legend things back at how I didn’t really care much When he was alive and no one thought much of it, I guess it’s not just me I got friends who knew him and they all just we all heard the same stories, but I guess when someone goes The stories hit different the memories hit different and It really makes you regret not embracing it more Embracing the moment more Embracing the time you had with them more. I’m probably just rambling right now, but I guess having a moment to think about The love I felt the time I had at the time I wish I still had It’s a lot different The anger I have and modern times and all that. I know this is anonymous. I’ve called here a few times comma God damn it. I Didn’t mean to say the comma part But this is I guess first the people you have in your life Love them more. I Know I need to do the same thing and fall by my own advice that love the people you have around while you can And don’t be afraid to humble yourself a little bit. I miss you dad We all miss you